Turn back time

If I were to change one thing about my past I would change my friend committing suicide. I used to do almost everything with her. We were really great friends, we liked all the same things and had all the same feelings for everything. If she were here today it would affect a lot of people. She had a lot of friends and I am sure every one of them misses her because I know I do. Though I do not think anyone misses her as much as I do, especially since I had planned to asking her about dating soon. And she committed suicide a couple days after my birthday so my birthday is always a bad time for me. If I could change her committed suicide I would not have to ask for flowers to set on her grave. And I could look forward to my birthday instead of it being a constant reminder of her and what could have been.